The pain that I had last Friday intensified on Monday and Tuesday. Despite the pain in my right knee and my left hip, I continued on like nothing was wrong. I did crossfit Monday morning, then during the warmup at crossfit on Tuesday morning, I had a sharp pain shoot through my hip, to the point I was unable to do some of the warm up exercises. The workout caused me more pain. That's when the line between stubborn and stupid became blurred and I continued with the workout despite the pain. Or, more likely, I was just being stupid to continue, ignoring what my body was trying to tell me.
I paid for it later. I have a desk job. I sit for a majority of my day. And Tuesday, anytime I got up out of my chair, I felt like crying from the pain in my hip. I did get out for my walks since walking and standing eased the pain quite a bit. I finally took some ibuprofen in the afternoon and that helped a bit. When I got home, I laid down with an ice pack on my hip and that helped a lot.
I went to the evening endurance class even thought I knew I couldn't run, even if I wanted to. I did the skills and drills, then stretched while Hubby and Juli (the only other two in the class that evening) ran ten 200 meter sprints.
I was feeling frustrated. I had been doing so great, making such strides in the workouts, and now I felt like a slacker, a whiner and worse, a quitter. I could barely do anything because of the pain either in my knee or my hip... or both. And the crazy part was, I didn't want to stop. I wanted to keep moving. I was terrified if I stopped, then I would fall into a depression and start overeating again.
After I was done stretching I went out and sat with Geoff, one of the owners of the crossfit gym, while he watched and filmed Hubby and Juli doing the 200 meter sprints. He asked what was going on, where I was having the pain, etc. I explained that I was trying to push through the pain because I didn't want to stop coming to crossfit or working out. I was finally starting to see some progress in the workouts and I was learning a lot. He told me that I could still come to the workouts, but to listen to my body. Do the skills I could and scale on the workouts when it causes me pain, or if I couldn't do the workout I could you that time to stretch. And take a break from running.
Talking to him helped my attitude. Up to that point, I wondering if I would have to give up crossfit. Especially since I seemed to be in worse shape then when I started. Yet, despite the new aches and pains, I am feeling stronger and more confident.
As everyone has been telling me, I am doing so much more than I ever had before. I was never athletic as a child, teenager, or young adult. And while I was losing weight, the most I had done was walk, hike and run. With doing crossfit, I am doing things and using muscles I have never done or used before. I had jumped into the classes and the workouts quickly and because of a new found stubbornness, I was ignoring the signals my body had been sending me.
Wednesday I didn't do anything but walk and mobility stretches. On Thursday morning at crossfit, I did as much as I could of the warm up, took it easy on the skill portion of the class, and for the workout, I did five 400 meter rows instead of running. I was little sore, but not bad. I walked throughout the day and went to the endurance class in the evening. I did as much of the skills and drills as I could, but when it came to doing a cadence run around the gym, I was only able to do a lap or two before my hip hurt so bad I couldn't run anymore. Krista, the endurance coach, suggested that I use the foam roller while they finished up the drills. I was feeling frustrated once again, but her suggestion was right on the mark. I used the roller and was able to do the workout. Granted, I rowed three sets of 800 meters instead of run, but it was still a good workout.
Friday I stuck with stretching and walking. I used the foam roller in the morning and at night. I did air squats throughout the day (anytime I used the restroom at work and there wasn't anyone else in there, I would do a set of 10 air squats... and with all the water I've been drinking, it was a lot of sets! LOL).
And today? A huge difference in my pain level. On a pain scale of one to ten, I'm at a two today, while the rest of the week, I was at a 5 or higher.
Tomorrow, I will be walking that fine line between stubborn and stupid again, and I'm hoping that I will take the time to listen to my body. I'm going for a 7 to 10 mile hike in the morning, over part of the endurance race trails. I need to do this so I can judge whether or not it's even feasible to do the race at this point. If I end up in pain, then I will back out of doing the 23K Elkhorn Endurance Race, which will allow someone who is on the waiting list to participate. I hate to give up my slot, but I need to quit being stupid and listen to my body. Like Krista told me, if I think scaling back on the workouts are frustrating, getting injured and not being able to do anything for several weeks sucks.
Despite all the frustrations and pain from this week, there has been some good. Great, actually. I may finally have found the key to my overeating and giving into my junk food cravings. I have been tracking again on myfitnesspal and decided to upgrade to their "premium" service which allows me set various calories goals on different days. So I upped my calorie goal on days I do crossfit and kept it a bit lower for days I don't. I also avoided grains and processed sugar this week, while working on getting my 64 oz of water. It worked! I lost the weight I had gained after my cinnamon roll and bread binge. And felt more in control with and around food. Which was a big accomplishment considering I didn't do any comfort eating due to the pain.
Now the trick will be to continue that for another week...
My Goal Chart |
This week has definitely been a struggle for me, but I'm glad I persevered. I'm also glad that the crossfit is such a supportive community. It really helped me to see the fine line between stubborn and stupid... now it's up to me to learn the difference!