I tend eat mindlessly. And I do this a lot. I eat while I'm working. I eat while I'm reading. While on the computer, in front of the TV, and texting on my phone. When I am distracted, I eat mindlessly, and tend to overeat.
This is one of many reasons why I continue to struggle to maintain my weight. I have broken some habits over the years. I no longer eat and drive (okay, occasionally on long trips, but not on errands around town). My husband and I, for the last year, have turned off the TV during dinner. We focus on our food and enjoy some time to just sit and talk with one another.
So I am capable of change.
But I still have a long way to go. I have tried, for short periods of time, to eat every meal and snack at the kitchen table with no distractions. I can do it, and I always feel much better when I do. I am more aware of what I'm eating, when I feel satisfied, and if I'm really hungry or not. When I have to mindfully stop what I'm doing, and make the time to sit at the table to eat, I often found that I really wasn't that hungry. That I would rather continue with whatever I was doing then stop to eat.
Last night was one of those nights that I should have incorporated my "sit at the table with no distractions" rule. Instead, I spent the time after dinner grazing through the cupboards. Ate handfuls of granola while standing at the counter. Ate my apple and nutbutter while reading (but I was at the table with TV off... maybe I get half credit for that...?). Ate kale chips while watching TV. And dang near gave in and had one of the Ferrero Rocher chocolates from the freezer.
And here's the kicker. I ate all that, and I wasn't even hungry. I was tired. So I was grazing through food (granted, on-plan food... just way too much for one evening), eating mindlessly, I wasn't hungry, wasn't enjoying the food, and I felt twinges of guilt for overeating.
This is one of the bad habits, I would very much like to break. I would like to get to the point I only eat when I'm hungry. I want to listen to my body, wait for the hunger cues, and then eat. I want to be focused on what I'm eating, eat slowly, enjoy it, savor it, and stop eating when I'm satisfied.
I don't want to eat distractedly because "it's time to eat" or because the food is sitting in front of me (or near me). I want to be in control of when and what I eat. I don't want to feel like outside forces are controlling my actions.
How do I break the habit? Good question. I know what I need to do. I need to go back to my "sit at the table with no distractions" rule. I need to slow down and focus on the food. Much easier to think about doing it than actually doing it. But I will work on it breaking the habit of grazing, of mindless eating, of eating when I'm not hungry. And then maybe... just maybe... one of these days it will be a habit to only eat when I'm hungry and eat mindfully.
Does my grazing mean that Day 16 wasn't a success? Nope. It was a success because I stuck to on-plan food and I did not give into the chocolate temptation. Instead of continuing to graze, I made some tea. And I went to bed early. So in my book, it was still a success.
And Day 17 is headed in that direction as well.