Friday and Saturday were successes for me. I got through both days by focusing on what I was capable of doing. I tracked, drank water (though never enough) and got out for a couple of short walks here and there.
Work on Friday was a lot tougher than I expected. It was a beautiful spring day here in Montana (one of our first good days), so no one wanted to be stuck at work which made it difficult to focus. I didn't have any major projects to keep my mind from wandering or my eyes from glancing out the office window every five minutes. When I get that way, I tend to want to eat (boredom eating). I struggled through and kept looking at MyFitnessPal app to remind me that I needed to save some calories for dinner.
Yesterday went so much better than I expected. I spent nearly 8 hours at the scrapbook crop and not only didn't eat any of the many treats they had (the snacks seem to multiple by the hour), I got out for two short walks. Something I had never done before while at the crop. The weirdest part was I wasn't really tempted by the treats... they had some awesome treats! I don't know why, but I'm grateful for that. Made it easier to get through the day. Though if I could figure out why some days are like that and others are so tough, it would make this weight loss thing whole lot easier!
Before going to the scrapbook crop, hubby and I went to Walmart to get our weekly groceries and so I could pick a couple healthy snacks to take the crop. I decided against some of the foods I would normally get (individual bags of baked chips, Breyers Natural Vanilla ice cream, and diet 7up) and got string cheese, fruits and veggies instead. Made a last minute change on one of the dinners I had planned when I realized some of the ingredients didn't follow the follow the five or less rule. The five or less refers to the ingredients in the product... a product should contain five or less natural (if possible) ingredients. I hadn't realized how fair I had strayed from that guideline until yesterday.
Still focusing on this weight loss one day at time. Yes, my mind wanders and I try to visualize a future at a healthy weight, but I remind myself that this is going to be a long uphill battle and I need to focus on the moment. I could make plans, set goals, and tell myself I'm do x, y and z by a certain date, but it won't happen. It never does. This moment is the only thing I have control over.
How long will this new resolve, this positive attitude, last? I have no idea. I'm just going to enjoy it and take advantage of it while it's here.
This morning I stepped on the scale. I told myself it was to make sure that our Aria Fitbit Scale was syncing with the app (which it did not do on Friday), but really it was see how I was doing. Which I know I shouldn't do; I still have that love/hate relationship the scale. How am I doing just 48 hours after weighing myself on Friday? Down .8, that gives me that mental boost I need to keep going. And yes, the scale did sync with the app today.
My challenge for today? My challenge today will be to get my steps in. Sundays are the hardest day for me to get moving. I generally spend my time sitting... working on bills, working on my Lego business, taking a nap. Not a very active day. And the weather here is so supposed to be cool and overcast, which doesn't make it very inviting to get out for a walk (but if I was running, it would be awesome weather for that). Tracking my food intake and drinking my water shouldn't be an issue, so I will need to focus on my steps and force myself out for a couple of walks around the neighborhood. If hubby is around, I'm sure he will go with me which will make it easier to get outside. Always easier, when you make a plan with someone else.
Huh... reading this over, I realize this is kind of a boring post. But it is Sunday, just a quiet, boring day at home. And not many people will read this anyway. I mentioned to my friend Sibyl yesterday that I was blogging again, but not posting the link to Facebook because I was embarrassed and ashamed of my weight gain. She laughed and commented that I was stilling posting it to the internet where anyone could see it. True, but what she doesn't realize is I don't get many hits on my post when I don't have the link in Facebook. I get maybe 5 to 10 hits (I'm pretty sure most of those are just me, clicking to make sure the page looks good LOL). I'm not even sure how those people (or you, the reader) find these posts. Maybe once I feel like I'm really back on track and being successful more days than not, then I will start linking the post to Facebook for my friends and family to see. I'm just not there yet.
Okay, if you have gotten to this blog by mistake, or have come here intentionally, and have read this far, I want to say thank you! Now, go out and enjoy the rest of your day. :-)