My holidays were great. I got to spend time with my family, but had plenty of time to relax and enjoy my time off as well. And of course, ate too much and exercised too little.
I wish I could say that I am starting off the New Year all gung-ho to whip myself into shape, but that's just not happening.
Why? Because life is throwing me some curves and my weight loss efforts have taken a back seat until things calm down.
On the 2nd of January I meet with a OB/GYN to discuss my fibroid issues and it was decided that I would have a hysterectomy. Major surgery, but it should eliminate my ongoing issues. I'm in agreement this is the right thing to do, but there is the stress of the surgery, the recovery time, and missing a big chunk of work.
And work is big change number two. We are going through a fairly major reorganization. In the 18 years I've worked in this section, there hasn't been a reorg of this magnitude. Other areas have been effected over the years, but ours has stayed pretty much the same with just minor changes here and there. But now they are splitting out the group of people I work with (some of which I've worked with for over 14 years), co-workers have been promoted to supervisors (and I'm thrilled for them, I have no desire whatsoever to oversee anyone other than myself!), and two of my co-workers are moving to newly created sections. So along with these changes we will be moving offices, downgrading in the size of cubicles and I will be moving from an office of three people to an area with 12 to 16 people in cramped little cubicles.
While all this changing of jobs, shuffling people, moving cubes is happening, I'm scheduled for my week long vacation. My next RunDisney 10K and half marathon.
I did mention that weight loss efforts have taken a back seat, right? Which means, in my case, little to no exercise is going on. Add on the stress of trying to get enough activity in so that I can do the two races with some confidence. My exercise has dwindled down to occasional lunch time walks with Windy (and thank goodness for her, otherwise I would probably just sit at my desk over my lunch hour!) and doing a long walk/jog on the treadmill once a week.
Work stress, stress about being in shape enough to run a 10K and half marathon, and the stress of major surgery has gotten me to the point I really don't care about what I eat or how much. I am angry at myself for not keeping my eating under control and punish myself with more bad food choices. I'm back in the vicious cycle of stress eating... and worse, I don't seem to care.
The surgery is scheduled for February 11th and I'm hoping the work situation has settled down by then. I was worried about having enough leave to be gone for 2 to 3 weeks, but luckily I have just enough time on the books to be gone that long. I am working with my new supervisor on possibly working from home toward the end of the recovery, which would be a good thing for me (time wise) and her (due to the changes I will be her only "veteran" employee).
For now, I'm trying to deal with all this stress one day at a time. I have found myself a new hobby as stress reliever (thanks again to Windy!). Who would have thought at 45 years old, I would fall in love with Legos? Building, tearing things apart, and building something new has helped to take my mind off the stress. An added bonus, I don't snack nearly as much in the evenings when I'm "playing" with my Legos. Now, I just need to figure out how to quit snacking at work every time I feel stressed. Hmmm... had planned on a short little post, but this has turned into a long rambling one. Though it has helped to write out all my stress. Maybe today will be a better day because of this.
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