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| Our Lego shop - where we run our business, Montana Used Bricks |
So, what have I been up to in the last 7 months? Work and Lego. That's pretty much it.
When I was in the shower this morning (where I do my best... and worst... thinking), it hit me. My priorities are all screwed up. And have been for three years now. And because my priorities have been screwed up, I have gained a staggering 90 pounds back.
What have my priorities been? Work, my expanding Lego business, family and friends, and myself last. By putting myself at the bottom of the priority list, it has caused all issues. If I would put myself first (not in the egotistical, it's-all-about-me way, but the my-health-and-happiness way), then I would have more time and energy for my other priorities.
Wow... only took me three years to figure that out...
I thought of all kinds of ways I could turn things around, but I have had numerous "plans" in the past year and none of them have lasted more than a few days. I know what I need to do, but the motivation, energy, will power, whatever you want to call it, just isn't there.
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| sorted inventory - waiting to be sold! |
I could do this or that, but then something comes up at work, or I get slammed with orders for Lego parts, or something comes up with my family and I quickly resort back to eating for comfort and not getting any exercise. In other words, I used life as my excuse to not live to the fullest. How stupid is that?
And please, don't think I'm all depressed and upset about where I am (okay, there are days like that but this isn't one of them...), today I'm just reflecting and accepting. I need to accept this is where I am in my life today, but it doesn't mean it's where I need to be (or will be) tomorrow... or even an hour from now.
Yes, there a million thoughts racing through my head this morning and I'm trying weed through them and discard the negative thoughts and focus on the positive. Negative leads to eating, when leads to being lethargic, which leads to weight gain. Positive thoughts lead to action.
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| Lego parts waiting to be sorted and put into inventory |
So, positive thoughts for the day:
My day job. This will be a surprise to my friends and co-workers, but as many times as I utter "I hate this job" at work, I really do like it more than I hate it. My role and responsibilities at work has greatly changed over the last year, to the point my current job looks nothing like it did before. But, as much as I hate to admit it, all the change has pushed me outside my comfort zone and shown me what I'm capable of doing. I do enjoy many aspects of my job and the leadership responsibilities that have been thrown on me at various times in the last year. I could learn to love my job, if I wouldn't let it run my life. I have been working 45 to 50 hours a week, putting in 8 1/2 to 10 hour days and working working weekends. And I struggle with trying to do the job perfectly... it's never going to happen so I need to accept that I can only do so much, ask for help, and let some things go. And most importantly, I need to take my breaks, get outside and MOVE.
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| A sampling of my Lego collection |
My Lego business. I love, love, love my Lego business. If I could work the business full time and make enough to pay my bills, I would do it in a heartbeat! I never dreamed I would run my own business. In fact, after watching my parents struggle with several business ventures, I swore I would never do that. But here's the thing, on-line business are totally different than retail stores. I can work at my own pace, make my own hours, and I can complain about "customers" and they never know! It's been awesome experience to have this business and I hope to continue it for years to come. The downside to this business is the time it takes to run it. I pride myself for the fast turn around on our orders, but that takes time and energy to do. I work on this business 2 to 5 hours a day during the week, and 5 to 12 hours a day on weekends and holidays. That doesn't leave a lot time for other activities. I have learned I need help with the business and my hubby is on board and spends nearly as much time as I do working with me. I have also had my mom and youngest niece to help get parts into inventory. But with any growing business, the more you grow, the more time required to keep it growing. I need to figure out more balance with the business. Limit the amount of time I spend on it, and put time aside to focus on other things... like my health.
Okay, as much as I would like to ramble on and give you more positive thoughts for the day, I need to wrap this up so I can get to my day job. My goal for today it to get out for one 10 minute walk. I know, that doesn't sound like much, but more me that will be a vast improvement!
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