Confession time

As of this morning, I weigh 224 pounds.  

I am just 28 pounds away from starting weight.  It took me over 6 years to lose the weight and four years to put it back on.  

What happened?  Well... I could say it's stress from my job, stress of working full time and

keeping up with a successful internet business, family, life got busy, blah, blah, blah...

What it comes down to, is I'm great at making excuses.  I have an excuse for everything.  

What don't I exercise? My right knee hurts, my left foot hurts, I don't have time.

Why don't I eat healthy foods?  Ummm.... well, this one I don't have an excuse for (let's come back to this one after I've had time to come up with an excuse).

Why don't I track food on myfitnesspal.com? Scott makes the dinners, so I don't know what's in it, so I can't track it.  It takes too much time. 

Why don't I go back to Weight Watchers?  I don't have the time or the money.

Why don't I drink my water?  Huh... this one stumps me like the healthy food one... no excuse comes to mind.

Why don't I just get out and walk for 5 to 10 minutes?  It's too cold, too hot, too windy.  I'm too busy.  I will walk in a few minutes (which never happens).

See... excuses.  Lots and lots of excuses.  

Basically, I gave up.  I decided that other stuff was more important than me and my health.  

So, is today the day I turn everything around?  Honestly, I don't know.  I've spent the last two or three years, getting up in the morning and telling myself that today is the day.  Today is the day I track, drink my water, and get out for a walk.  And I might do it.  Heck, I might even do it for 3 or 4 days in a row... then something happens.  I don't know what, I can't remember what gets me off track.  Another excuse, more than likely.

It's frustrating.  VERY frustrating.  I lost 120 pounds.  I kept it off for 4 years.  I am capable of losing weight and maintaining a healthy weight.  So why don't I?  God, I wish I knew.  

Here I sit.  Again.  Blogging about my struggles.

Today may be the day.  I have to start somewhere.  I'm starting small.  Focusing on today.  


What can I do today?  Track. Drink Water. Get more steps than yesterday.  Small, attainable goals.  

One day at time.  One moment at time.

Maybe I'll even come back to tomorrow and let you know how I did.  

And maybe I'll have an excuse for why I haven't been eating healthy foods and drinking my water.