Why, oh, why is that so hard for me to do?
I did it again. I was having a good day, getting my steps in, eating the right foods, feeling positive and healthy. By the time I got home from work I was a little tired, dragging a bit, but had enough energy to get a few little chores done before dinner. Then Hubby went off to hang with his friends to watch the Monday Night Football game and I was left alone. Alone and tired. And did I take myself to bed? Nope. I fell into my old habit of "eating to stay awake." I managed to find an abundant of snacks, which I ate while sitting on the couch, watching TV.
I didn't fall into just one old bad habit, but multiple bad habits... and I did them all at once. Grazing when I'm not hungry. Sitting on the couch instead of at the table to eat. Eating while distracted. Gah!
It's nights like those that make me realize just how ingrained those bad habits are. I was well aware of what I was doing, but for some reason I was unable to stop. And it's at those moments I completely forget about my awesome support system. I never think to stop and text, call, IM, or message a friend to get through those moments. I never, ever think to do that... until after the fact.
And not only did I overeat, but because I was watching TV and playing on my tablet at bedtime, I couldn't shut my brain off to get to sleep. Instead, as tired as I was, I stayed up late. That means, today will be a struggle because I'm still tired. Yet another vicious cycle.
So, just a day after my post on starting anew.... I am starting fresh... again... *sigh*
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