The hysterectomy surgery went well. They were able to do the laparoscopic surgery so only three little cuts, and for me, very little pain. I was prepared to have a lot of pain, however, there was surprisingly little. Or maybe I just had really good drugs. Either way, I was moving to and from the bathroom at the hospital within 12 hours of the surgery and was more than ready to come home the following day.
I spent the first few days of my recovery just laying on the couch or sleeping, then I began to venture outdoors for short walks around the block (I'm sure the neighbors thought I was casing the houses on our street since I was walking the same route over and over). I was doing well the first week, but one week after the surgery, I began to lose my motivation to get out for the walks, I didn't want to do anything except lay on the couch and eat. Looking back, I think I was falling into a depression of sorts. About a week and a half after my surgery, a friend suggested we meet at the local coffee shop to talk. She had the same surgery just two months before me, so she understood everything I was going through. Walking to the coffee shop (just a block or so from my house) and talking with her really lifted my spirits. It gave me some motivation to start moving and looking at where I wanted to go with my recovery. At two weeks I went in for my post op check up. Everything is going great with my recovery and I got released to go back to work on a "part time, as tolerated" basis. I went into the office the following day, just two weeks and one day after the surgery. I only worked 2 hours, but it felt so good to be doing some of my normal routine and it was especially nice to just get out of the house! Even though I had spent years being a happy homebody prior to my weight loss, I am no longer that person. I want to be doing something, I want to be out and about.
As for my weight, let's just say I am happy and not happy at the same time. At my last weigh in at Weight Watchers I was 148.2, the morning of my surgery I was around 153 (was too nervous to retain the actual weight) and when I weighed in on Saturday I was 154.6.
I managed to only gain a pound or two while I was at home recovering (in other words, laying around and eating for 2 1/2 weeks). I thought for sure I had gained 8 to 12 pounds! So I was thrilled at the small weight gain during the recovery and chalked the weight gain between the last weigh in and surgery to stress eating.
But am also unhappy... I am 19 pounds above my weight goal. I know a lot of people say that isn't much in the scheme of things, but my weight has been slowly increasing for the last year or so. It's scary to think that if I keep up with the way I'm eating that I could gain all my weight back in a very short amount of time.
Now I have a choice. To whine and complain about the weight gain or to do something about it.
I wish I could say that I came home from the WW meeting all ready to do battle with my weight, but I wasn't ready. And quite honestly, I'm not sure if I'm totally there yet. I'm more ready than I was yesterday, but I have a long way to go to get back on track.
I am still in recovery mode. Although I haven't had a lot of pain from the surgery (Yea for that!), I am still tired a lot of the time. I feel energetic in spurts and then find myself crashed on the couch. So gathering the energy to walk (my only form of exercise at the moment) is difficult. And the cold Montana weather doesn't exactly entice me to go out of doors for some fresh air.
Little exercise or activity leaves me sitting on the couch, which for me, leads to overeating. It's a vicious cycle which I'm slowly getting out of. I am working on some small things to get me back on track. I'm trying to only eat at the table (no more snacking while on the couch watching TV), no distractions while eating (off goes the TV, no phone, computer, or tablet), and getting away from the processed foods (okay, still working on that one... craved a lot of comfort foods while recovering).
Those are my small steps I'm working on today. I hope to start adding more as the week progresses. I'm also adding a bit more activity to my day with some walking DVD's until the weather improves and I can get myself outside.
Hopefully now that I am attempting to get myself back on track with the weight loss (and life in general), I will get back to blogging more. Hopefully...
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